(Thursday, June 16, 2011 / 6/16/2011)
time do passes very fast if you really enjoy every single moment, but what about those when you stay at home relax and rot? i realized that people are not satisfied with anything, just like me, i guess?
when i am busy, i complained i am tired and want to stay at home
but then when i do really stay at home for a day, i complained that there is nothing to do. it's the human nature that makes everything complicated, just like my life?
not really too sure about it, but i do know the answer and whether to believe or not, is all up to me.
it's only a awhile, and not yet a day but deep inside it's like taking forever.
if only, i could just change the thinking maybe i will not feel troubled. LOL. . it's only today that this feeling makes me feel ARGH. . . .
(Tuesday, May 31, 2011 / 5/31/2011)
here i am, back in this little space. feeling the urge to pen down everything but not knowing what stuffs should be written here.
it is amusing when you want to do something and yet not knowing what is that something.
it's going to be june really really soon.
half anticipating half dreading, well, it's something that one should feel happy about it, i guess so. i going to be 21 pretty real soon.
in this half a year, like what i said, things change and i am really having the fun time out of my life. i guess you lose a bit and you gain lots lots. get what i mean? haha.
thinking changes, everything changes but here i am, still enjoying and i am contented.
but. . there's still so much to do and the route ahead still left unknown.
i still finding the direction where i want to head to.
ta-dah, enough of nagging. lol. . .
(Saturday, May 21, 2011 / 5/21/2011)
cant believe it, almost half a year has gone. glad to say i had indeed spent my time wisely. it's weird to see that there are actually some "sunlight" in my post, right?
anyway, my second year in SIM is ending soon and in July i will be commencing my third year, fast isn't it?
woa woa, based on this, it tells a lot. cant believe i am entering into a new stage of life--> 21 years old. adult stage, OMG, do you know what is OMG?
i think i am exaggerating but to me, it's like a big issue. ah-hem hello, few years back, i was just 17 and in just a blink of time, i am going to be 21.
month-check, it's may. i had missed out some blog entry for the month of April.
i believed i had spent my time to the fullest for this year. i had learnt and gained a lot during this year and i am contented with what i have right now. hope things could remain like this for as long as possible. just want everything to be simple and fun. i guess that's the right way to live life to the fullest, right. . .
ta-dah. . gonna find something to make myself busy. whee =)
(Friday, March 25, 2011 / 3/25/2011)
just realized that almost all my posts are emo. lol.
think of it like bit sad lei but what to do. would only come here when i got no where to roar.
is like suddenly will become emo for no reason.
really cannot understand why will become emo for no reason. lol
人生为何如此，此如何为？
(Wednesday, March 23, 2011 / 3/23/2011)
well. let's say, it's the end of the chiong-ness project months/weeks. but think again, after busy for so long, suddenly so eng = lost too.
suddenly the road in front become invisible. roar.
what is happening. . . .
or sad to say i am only fit for those chiong-ness day and not those kind of carefree periods.
wah, abit sad though. lol.
my route have been planned but the motivation is not there yet.
almost every single day did not pass without feeling troubled. i am not saddist, okay. . .
i still got enjoy my life and pass everyday happily. . .
just that. . just that. . my brain cant seem to stop thinking about the future and those 'what if'. .
study break is here and i have not touch my books. the mood is really not there o. .
sometimes feel like useless bum. . wah. . sooo cham right. lol. really duno what is happening. . .
can enjoy = dun wan enjoy,
cannot enjoy = wan enjoy. . .
so mao dun right. . .lol. . .
(Thursday, March 3, 2011 / 3/03/2011)
back again. is the month of march.
2011 is definitely a busy year with so many stuffs happening. just wishing for more time and space.
really wondering. really and i meant it.
no matter what i do, how hard i tried, u seem to find fault in everything that i did. what else can i really do? am i really your 亲生的？
i seriously been thinking about this ever since i was 7 years old. just that i thought is the way how life is? i really do not know. i mean i cant blame my parents or what. but what i really want was peace, family love and those kind of happiness that i has always seen it on the streets.
i had learn to accept the way how things it were. i am contended but what i really want was those kind of family love that i always 羡慕. . . .
now that i had came to the age of 21 where my thinking and everything had changed, i really want to be good and turn over a new leaf. i am no longer the kid that i used to be. i really want to be filial and cherish everything that i had.
i not saying that i am unhappy or wanting to leave. . .
i am happy with what i have right now and i cant ask for more as compared to those out there in the world. BUT, what about family love?
haiz. i guess i coming to a new stage in life where i am beginning to take everything seriously and wanting to do more for my family. still, i faced criticisms.
guess i have to work harder in order to gain recognition.
(Monday, February 7, 2011 / 2/07/2011)
i guess saying useless things would not help much eh.i guess i had grown up to be a better person since i am able to face it so strongly.
new direction to my future and i knew what is needed to do so.
set aside those stuffs and just concentrating on the important ones.
that's all.
i got a lot and many stuffs to do and complete but there is not enough time. if only, i got more than 24hours a day. ^^
(Tuesday, February 1, 2011 / 2/01/2011)
well. looking at my previous post, think is too kua zhang o. now think of it, abit too rash. anyway, jan is a month that is too happening in a sense that there are weird, happy, unpredictable and sad stuffs happen lol.
time is passing too quickly that i realised i didnt have enough time to do my own things. 24hours a day is not enough. there are simply too many things for me to do and i need to do them fast.
is the month of feb and cny is coming. yet there is no signs of cny mood and i am stuck doing projects and essays. stress though but i seem to handle it quite well.
soon will be exam and all these. those cycles, lol.
(Friday, January 28, 2011 / 1/28/2011)
why human beings need to have troubles? why cant human be free of trouble? i had enough. seriously. big n heavy burden on me.just when i thought all is over, it had to begin again.
why cant just let me go?
seriously. i have enough. i hate everything. there's so much stress and pressure on me.
why cant i be free of troubles? i thought i am fine and strong again. WHAT IS THIS?
playing a trick on me? F**K la.
I really need a place to throw all my anger out. nobody can tell me the answer and the solution. is only ME ME ME ME. what shall i do? i feel so irritated, angry and emo. ROAR
(Wednesday, January 26, 2011 / 1/26/2011)
not sure of what to do. i guess avoiding and hiding are not necessary the best way to solve the problem, it only makes things worsen. i guess i have to face it in order to go to the destined path. people around me are nice and are always there to help give advice. i am really grateful for that. i just do not understand why there are nice and bad people. i always tried to understand what people around me are thinking and the answer that i get was no answer. seriously, it's damn hard to figure out the human mind. no matter how i tried to think and figure, it only makes me more irritated and vexed. i give up. . LOL!i am slowly crawling back to my own path and i guess after some time i will be running soon instead of walking. definitely!erm. just ate alot of sinful food. last time i do not believe such word but now i had to. hard to control though. hehe
(Tuesday, January 25, 2011 / 1/25/2011)
sometimes really do not understand the human nature. . .really. seriously. humans are complex. give up trying to understand human-being. why lei. if only, humans are easy to understand. like that there are no fan nao lei. haizzz. . . .why o why o why o. . .feb is going to be a super busy month. . hope thing will turn out good lei. hehe^^
(Monday, January 24, 2011 / 1/24/2011)
i really cant imagine eating and stuffing down so many dim sum into your stomach for hours. well, i just did that not long ago. the feeling was just shiok-ness, terrible, bloated, happy and tired. cant really sit straight throughout that buffet, simply because the space in the stomach are completed utilised. LOL. this is some get-away from the reality and some methods of pampering yourself. planning and organising activities are still my chuan chang and i really like that. making yourself as busy as possible in order to use the 24hours per day well. one does not have the time in the world to waste, dun get this wrong. i not saying i have some problem or what, *choy*. just want to use all the time well, just in case when i get into the working society, i afraid these activities are hard to come. just want to relax and rest till CNY before the project period comes in. lol. hee^^
